Back and commissioned, but

Hi earthlings, sounds like this blog is dead for quite sometime. Well, i should say this is not a reviving session because i do not know when i will be free again. As you all can see, i've commissioned on the 13th June. This is one day that i look forward to but not for the pride nor the rank. I couldn't explain much of my feeling as i tossed the cap when announced as the commissioned officer. Whether it is sad, happy, or troubled. Because commissioning is not what i wanted.

Many. Many of those who are fond to get into OCS but doesn't have the chance. But why me? i could either do good in anything that i'm tasked with. Now i'm going to lead men under my charge to missions. I shall say that i'm not ready or perhaps i'm even suitable for this.

Officer, Studies, Privileges in my life. Those are things that i dislike and just happened to came past me so sudden. Yes, you people might be thinking i'm blessed for this shit, but isn't life just too plain, so going through the motion? Life, isn't it to achieve somethings you like and get it eventually? Not as if i'm greedy or what but come on, Throughout this life, getting something that you dislike is more suffering and pain.

I too privilegely blessed with things like that. I guess i'm just someone going through motion like just any one of you guys. Yes, it's fulfilling, but have you ever just think of what makes you happy in your life?

Thanks people! =)

Thanks for all those who are able to celebrate my 22nd birthday throughout these days. Be it in camp, outside of camp or even smses, it has been all these that makes me feel so happy for this year's birthday.

Thanks to the people who celebrated my birthday even though it is a belated one. All the planning and time that you guys chip in to make this surprise a nice one. Throughout my birthdays that i had for 22 years, this year was really my unpredicted one i should say. Sorry if i'm quite stun or speechless all of a sudden, maybe it's because i'm still in a tiring mode. Nonetheless, it was a good one. Thanks Sze Sze, Hui Xin, Fabian, Wei Quan, Azmil, Zhi Fan, Leon, Kian Wee, VK, Serene, Sir Kiat, Jie Wen, Ashtorie, and more. Your gift for me is priceless.

How i hope i can go back in time, just to go through the motion again without thinking so much as what i'm now. Being bothered? Troubled? Stressed? It is still too complicated for me to understand now. 22 years, now i felt that i'm thinking a lot for what i will be in the future. Did army really play a part in nurturing one so that what the one did before army was taken for granted? Just not in the mood for days like this but somehow i thanks all my friends for tahaning this nonsense.

Yes, i'm avoiding things in my life when i entered into army. Somethings just tells me that i shouldnt be not avoiding these things. Maybe i'm wrong? But nobody is not wrong in their life.

To sum up, this few words explains all:
- Thankful
- Troubled
- Avoiding




Well, bad thoughts aside. 3 more weeks to commission. I shall say i wasn't that much prepared but i can't do anything about it though. Got my CSB, Marksman, IPPT gold. Achieving the things in my army life as part of a speedy motion to end this life. What should i be thinking out of this three weeks that i have now?








Lastly, Thanks people, for making my life sailing as smoothly as it is now. =)

Bye people

Yup, Going to Taiwan for training. Shall not elaborate further. Just hope i can come back in one piece. Fucking Sianz.

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The 48 hours of weekend

Back from these few tiring week. More to go but one major one coming soon. 2 more weeks to Taiwan trip! 21 days... whats more can i say? Time flew fast. Pass one day, wake up another, and found that actually it's time for us to countdown our days in OCS. 26 weeks had passed in a blink of an eye, 13 more weeks to go. Things that i have been through which i could not believe myself that i could actually achieve it. Such as:
-CSB
-Endurance runs (10km)
-Lots of exercises
-IPPT gold
-39 weeks
-and many more
Well, although i had achieved them, i still have a long way to go thought. I hope that i could commission somehow or rather because i think i have gone this far already. Lots of shit, lots of brain fucking, and definitely more stress. The only thing that could have been more is sleeping.

Haiz.



13 more weeks loh!
'R U READY?!'

A Quick One

IPPT Gold - Checked!
SOC - Checked!
16km rm w 15kg load - Checked!
24km rm w 20kg load - Checked!
10km Run - Checked!

Still to go:
32km rm w normal load
72km rm w 25kg load
ATP



So fast, it's another month. I hope it will be even faster.

Another week has passed...

Effectively from 1feb, it is going to be 20 weeks to commission. So near but yet so far, but well, just only go to bear with it. So this week, CNY, then book in straight from cousin house. SOC and ET run. Was quite happy for the fact that i can run 6km without stopping(instead of finding motivation to run which my instructor says, i saw the oil price increases while running near Shell station... LOL). Hmmm, SOC with all damn load which i clock 9min55sec. i'm sure i can pass the next time round. YEAH!

Ok! going for Li Matthew's birthday party already! haha.. will be back home around? haha.. Holiday, seems to me you are not enough for me...



Hails

Unearthly moment to post

Hi people. Has been a long time since i have post anything le. Everything is fine so far. However kind of demoralize because of the changes happening in Signals. Thought it was going to be easy for me but well, there is still a lot of a toughness being an officer-to-be still. Hmm.. Right now i'm like stuck with 30 radio net diagram yet to draw. Average for one diagram is about 1 hour or more. Yes, 30hours. Damn stupid way of memorising. Make my finger full of blisters and aches. Hmmm... ya.. something bad happen this week which is my IPPT, here's the result:

Pull-ups = 14
Sit-ups = 42
Standing Board Jump = 272cm
Shuttle Run = 8.7sec
2.4km = 9min 15sec

Bad? BECUZ IT FUCKING VOIDED! Can't really blame that guy but VOIDED STILL!! FUCK!! which means i have to retake again and so do the other 65 of them. Damn.. sipei suay..



Anyways, apart from army daze, Wishes all a happy and wonderful new year and yeah! 20 june! i'm coming....



HAILS!