Back and commissioned, but

Hi earthlings, sounds like this blog is dead for quite sometime. Well, i should say this is not a reviving session because i do not know when i will be free again. As you all can see, i've commissioned on the 13th June. This is one day that i look forward to but not for the pride nor the rank. I couldn't explain much of my feeling as i tossed the cap when announced as the commissioned officer. Whether it is sad, happy, or troubled. Because commissioning is not what i wanted.

Many. Many of those who are fond to get into OCS but doesn't have the chance. But why me? i could either do good in anything that i'm tasked with. Now i'm going to lead men under my charge to missions. I shall say that i'm not ready or perhaps i'm even suitable for this.

Officer, Studies, Privileges in my life. Those are things that i dislike and just happened to came past me so sudden. Yes, you people might be thinking i'm blessed for this shit, but isn't life just too plain, so going through the motion? Life, isn't it to achieve somethings you like and get it eventually? Not as if i'm greedy or what but come on, Throughout this life, getting something that you dislike is more suffering and pain.

I too privilegely blessed with things like that. I guess i'm just someone going through motion like just any one of you guys. Yes, it's fulfilling, but have you ever just think of what makes you happy in your life?